Camouflage Christmas

So today's rant is about my Christmas gift, and let me just start by bitching that I only got 1 gift this year. Seems like every year the number gets lower and lower. Any way, the only thing I asked for (being considerate of the economic crisis) was a Ninja Turtle Snuggie, no more than 10 bucks at Wal-Mart. And WTF did I wake up to this morning, a camouflage Snuggie still in the Rite Aide bag that it was bought in from the last minute shopper the night before...O.M.G. I about had a fit, WTF am I suppose to do with this. It's not like I hunt or am part of the armed forces to go incognito on a mission, but of course, I put on my appreciative face and cheered with holiday thank you's before I walked away and screamed. How is it the year I make a simple request, is the year it becomes the most difficult gift to receive. I did award credit for the fact that it was in fact a Snuggie.

I don't want to seem self centered but come on, I only got one gift this year and I would at least have preferred it to be the right one. So being the kind hearted person I am (4 hours later), I walk out of my room wearing the Snuggie with a smile on my face. And seeing the joy it gave my mom to see me in that Snuggie (knowing she purchased the wrong one) was priceless. So all in all I'm grateful I got a gift at all, and that it was half of what I wanted.

My point is this, in the moment it may seem that we're disappointed at what we receive because it wasn't what we wanted or requested, no matter how simple the request. In the end it's the kind act of someone going out of their way to give you that gift that matters the most. I know that we realize these things after the fact, but I was no longer miserable when I seen her face light up. So be thankful for the people in your lives, no matter who they are, big or small. And give thanks to the joys they bring into your life and the love in which all of what they do is intended. 

Merry Christmas !

"Plan B"

I was having a conversation with a friend the other day and we started discussing our futures, dreams and the roads we've taken through out our lives. I only recently jumped off my cloud of dreams and starting living my life realistically, but I look at some of my friends around me, and they're still stuck in the clouds. We've tried to convince people to have a plan B, and to start taking life seriously but realistically what are you chances of achieving your star famed dreams. I know I will never be the dancer I dreamed I would be but that doesn't mean that I can't be the teacher of dancers, or an opportunity to be on an off Broadway show, or even to choreograph my own group. Am I holding my breathe for fame, no, not any more. I realize that life is moving on with or without me, and Instead of sitting around disappointed in myself, or singing the Should of, Could of, Would of, then I'll be missing out on a whole lot. So I'll continue to do what makes my heart sing while still continuing to build a career. And this is the message we try to send out to our friends, it's not to give up your dreams but just have a Plan B so if that dream is never achieved or takes longer to achieve, then they're not left jobless, middle aged, with no skills or back up plan and having to start from scratch...

 I sometimes look around me and wonder, now that this person is married and has children, do they ever just give up on life. Do they wonder to themselves, this is my life I might as well just go through the motions, or do they still strive to achieve better. I look at my friends and notice the way they eagerly want to hear about my stories of my exciting night outs, or the drama that surrounds my life. I see the way they look at their children, and I can't help but wonder if they have any regrets. I know they love their children, but if they had waited I'm almost positive they would be happier in their own lives. The ironic part is that I look at them looking at their children and want what they have...

In no way am I saying to give up on your dreams, because imagination and dreams are important to have, what I'm suggesting is to always have a back up plan. And definitely go after your dreams no matter the stakes, if it will truly make you happy !