Armageddon

Well this year is finally over and it's time to put all of the drama and arguments and negative people behind us and come into the New Year Clean and with a New attitude (post video on blog). 

I'm welcoming the new year with a new attitude, and not letting anyone or anything bring me down. No to negative energy and on top of all that, I have so many plans going into the new year that I'm anxious to get started. I have this pact that a group of friends created, we all take 5-6 things we want to accomplish within the year and we make one master list and together we accomplish all the items on the list. And they span anywhere from concerts, to sky diving, to taking a trip. I love this idea, although it's kind of freaky how similar it is to a bucket list but it gets the point across. It's a way to bring us together, and to do things out of the ordinary. Yeah! I know there's an MTV show about this sort of thing, but they only accomplish one of your dreams, we're doing a lot more than one.  I'm assuming since I picked a CHER concert, I better hurry up and book since Feb. will be her last month.

Although I just started this blog a few weeks ago, I want to say thank you to all my readers, and I wish you the very best of wishes for the New Year! I'm trying to upkeep a new blog on a daily basis I've even compiled them in a folder for my own keepsake to one day publish a book. HA! I'll add that one to my list. I Thank you for your continued support and would love to hear your stories of your adventures on 2010's Armageddon. Which is what it feels like, the end of a world that catered to so much disappointed, along hand with victories, triumphs, and a meat dress (Lady Gaga). Which means I can not wait to see what 2011 will bring.!

I love you all, have a safe night, don't drink and drive, and please wrap it up ! 

HAPPY NEW YEAR !  2011 !

A Kardashian World

According to E!Online the rumor is that Kim Kardashian is working on an album to be released and is apparently working with Kanye West on a record. Two things completely wrong with that sentence. First just let me state that I happen to be a huge Kardashian fan but when it comes down to this, I have to say STOP!!!

It's one thing to have the number one reality show, and to be a business mogul but draw the line somewhere. If you love to sing Kim, great but here's the thing, we've never heard you sing on your "reality" T.V. show. Do it there, sing on the show, don't release an album. I am so against actors becoming musicians because they play one in a movie, or musicians becoming actors, I mean Mariah Carey's "Glitter", and Britney Spears' "Crossroads" should have been a lesson to everyone. Stick to what you are known for Kim minus the porn, and don't cross over, cuz although I love ya, and will probably go out and buy the CD anyway. I don't wanna hear your music. I'm sure you're creative enough to know that the only way to make it in the music industry is to target your gay audience with club beats and Britney/Paris talk over voice. Doesn't really require talent, which like I said before we're not sure if you have. So take my advice Miss Kardashian, sing on your show, then we'll talk about music.

Since I'm on the subject of the Kardashian's, what the hell is the problem with Kourtney, I watch the show religiously, read the tweets, etc. And no where in any of this information do I see the love between Kourtney and her douche bag boyfriend, which for the life of me can't remember his name. Oh yeah, because he's a nobody!

Everyone knows that Khloe was right to accuse him of trapping her in the relationship by knocking her up, to become famous. Well douche I have news for you, you are famous, a famous douche bag that no one cares for. And had I been that waiter in Las Vegas that you shoved $100 down my throat last season, believe that I would have had you spend a Paris Hilton sentence of 90 days in jail (90 min) to teach you a lesson. And Kourtney my dear, do everyone a favor and dump him already, god, he's down worse to you than Reggie texting Kim bashing comments, and just to top off that cake, the boy dresses like a gay peewee herman.. Oh wait! I think he was gay. 

Anyway, that's my rant and rumor about the Kardash, don't really feel much like getting into how Kris is just like Mr. Jackson exploiting their kids for fame and money, we all know what kind mother see is and the last name ain't greatest (thanks for that Drake). P.S. Kardash sister's when you're ready for ROB to end his single streak, just give me a call, cause we know the boy's gay. Love Ya!

Easy A

So I spent my morning with a friend, and my afternoon watching the movie "Easy A", and it was interesting to me how both went hand in hand. Rumors!

A friend is being effected at her place of employment because of rumors that are supposedly being spread outside of the work place and now she's in limbo with her job. I recently found out that a friend was trying to sabotage me by spreading a rumor that I didn't like a particular person, who happens to be the boyfriend of a friend. And then there's the movie which is all based on rumors... Are you ready?

My theory on people who spread malicious rumors in order to sabotage or ruin another persons life are very threatened by you and are jealous of you, and here's why. The moment they feel that you have begun to win over a particular persons attention or in this case a groups favored attention, they begin to feel threatened. The fear that they will no longer be liked by this person or persons in question. So what do they do, they  attack the one thing that makes you favored, whether it be your personality, your charisma, or your looks. Because they know that they can not compete with you in way shape or form, for the mere lack of a personality, charisma, job, or genetics, THEY ATTACK ! Now to those that listen and go with the rapid waters of these malicious attacks are nothing more than sheep. Yes, I  said it, sheep. You are being lead by a sheep herder who has nothing going for them in their own lives that they must create chaos in others lives, and even ruin aspects of them. In my case, I simply remove that person or persons from all aspects of my life. Whether it be deleting them from my social network, or phonebook, or just ignoring their calls in general. Why do I this? because I don't create fuel to the fire, instead I let that person be eaten by their own gossip. Wondering to themselves why I refuse to answer, why I deleted them, why I've completely exiled them from my life. Then when time has passed I confront them, both allowing them and myself to have a candid conversation without emotions involved, as opposed to bursting in a rave and rant that would only add fuel the gossip. 

In the case, of my friend and her employment, because it is a secluded group the only thing she can do is have an open and candid conversation with her main boss. Not the one the is always in the office but the actual person in charge. The one who ultimately makes the decisions when it comes down to employment. What she doesn't want to do is add to the gossip by spreading gossip about the gossip about her. Bad !

As the movie prolonged to share, the truth all unravels and the accused are redeemed and the sheep are put to shame and the leader to be dealt with by his/her own hands. Trust me this works, because what the person will do is spread more and more rumors trying to cover and make up stories that are not relevant to the person they are about, and soon the sheep will begin to notice that they themselves can not trust this person, because they too can become a victim of his/her whip. So the herd with part, then slowly more sheep will follow the fed up crowd, and soon the leader ends up alone, to wallow in their own misery. 

So in closing, don't let those rumors, no matter how nasty or unfair they maybe to you, affect you in anyway. Continue to be the person you are, and all will unravel soon enough. But the choice will be yours to greet the sheep that followed back into your life or not. In my opinion, accept them back with open arms and at arms length a part. Only tell people what you want them to know, or how I tend to think of it. What I want other people to know, but my secrets are kept in box in my closet deep within myself where only I can find them, and only I know what to expose. Keep the control !

Money vs Happine$$

The true question which has been haunting my relationship has been, "money or happiness?" My partner believes that money is the most important factor in any career and in life in general. Graduating California State University with a degree in PoliSci and Communications. He claims he has no use for it in his career as a Real Estate agent, which up until 3 years ago has not served him any good. Although I support his choices, because after all it is his life and I want him to do what makes him happy, the same does not apply to me. I am constantly bombarded by the echoing taunts of what are you doing with your life? why do you choose a career that doesn't pay well? Go where the money is at? What about nursing? And although most are valid questions, the answers are simple. I enjoy dancing, it's what I want to teach and it's what I love to do. My heart belongs the arts, but it is so difficult for him to understand, because life to him is all business. I understand where he is coming from, it's his way of showing that he cares what I do in my life and the paths I choose, but he has to understand that I'm not about the money. Although I do have expensive tastes and very high standards, I love to do what I love to do more. 

I am constantly bragged about his friends how they all have degrees, and 6 digit a year paying jobs, and how he can carry an intelligent conversation with them because they have degrees. Education is great, and I believe everyone should have one, but understand that it is time consuming, it's expensive, and can be over whelming. I've been in community college for the past 10 years still working on my degree, why it's taking so long? Well the first 3 years were spent undecided, trying different fields, exploring my life, then life started to get complicated and I had to take a few years off, and now I'm back to finish. So I understand the frustration of why it's taken me so long because I live it. But the point of the matter is that I'm on the right path now and I know what I want. To him, however, is a dead end. If I haven't made it as a dancer by now I'll never make it. It's not fame I'm looking for, it's the joy I get out of dancing and helping others explore the world of dancing. I love to teach, and I have a leader personality, I want to be a teacher. Shouldn't I be supported in what I want to do with my life, the way I support him.

After our conversation I started to think, having money would be great, lord knows I've had plenty of opportunities to live a wealthy life style, but my intuition leads the best of me. If I'm not happy, I'm not going to stay, I won't do something that I feel I will be miserable at. The moral of this rant and rave, was to not give up on your dreams. You may have to make adjustments and variations but do what makes you happy. Don't settle for corporate America because the money is good, because one day you'll look back and ask, "What did I do with my life?" "In whose life did I really make a difference?" Because after all the lives we change are the lives that carry on our memory, through them your legacy lives.

Camouflage Christmas

So today's rant is about my Christmas gift, and let me just start by bitching that I only got 1 gift this year. Seems like every year the number gets lower and lower. Any way, the only thing I asked for (being considerate of the economic crisis) was a Ninja Turtle Snuggie, no more than 10 bucks at Wal-Mart. And WTF did I wake up to this morning, a camouflage Snuggie still in the Rite Aide bag that it was bought in from the last minute shopper the night before...O.M.G. I about had a fit, WTF am I suppose to do with this. It's not like I hunt or am part of the armed forces to go incognito on a mission, but of course, I put on my appreciative face and cheered with holiday thank you's before I walked away and screamed. How is it the year I make a simple request, is the year it becomes the most difficult gift to receive. I did award credit for the fact that it was in fact a Snuggie.

I don't want to seem self centered but come on, I only got one gift this year and I would at least have preferred it to be the right one. So being the kind hearted person I am (4 hours later), I walk out of my room wearing the Snuggie with a smile on my face. And seeing the joy it gave my mom to see me in that Snuggie (knowing she purchased the wrong one) was priceless. So all in all I'm grateful I got a gift at all, and that it was half of what I wanted.

My point is this, in the moment it may seem that we're disappointed at what we receive because it wasn't what we wanted or requested, no matter how simple the request. In the end it's the kind act of someone going out of their way to give you that gift that matters the most. I know that we realize these things after the fact, but I was no longer miserable when I seen her face light up. So be thankful for the people in your lives, no matter who they are, big or small. And give thanks to the joys they bring into your life and the love in which all of what they do is intended. 

Merry Christmas !

"Plan B"

I was having a conversation with a friend the other day and we started discussing our futures, dreams and the roads we've taken through out our lives. I only recently jumped off my cloud of dreams and starting living my life realistically, but I look at some of my friends around me, and they're still stuck in the clouds. We've tried to convince people to have a plan B, and to start taking life seriously but realistically what are you chances of achieving your star famed dreams. I know I will never be the dancer I dreamed I would be but that doesn't mean that I can't be the teacher of dancers, or an opportunity to be on an off Broadway show, or even to choreograph my own group. Am I holding my breathe for fame, no, not any more. I realize that life is moving on with or without me, and Instead of sitting around disappointed in myself, or singing the Should of, Could of, Would of, then I'll be missing out on a whole lot. So I'll continue to do what makes my heart sing while still continuing to build a career. And this is the message we try to send out to our friends, it's not to give up your dreams but just have a Plan B so if that dream is never achieved or takes longer to achieve, then they're not left jobless, middle aged, with no skills or back up plan and having to start from scratch...

 I sometimes look around me and wonder, now that this person is married and has children, do they ever just give up on life. Do they wonder to themselves, this is my life I might as well just go through the motions, or do they still strive to achieve better. I look at my friends and notice the way they eagerly want to hear about my stories of my exciting night outs, or the drama that surrounds my life. I see the way they look at their children, and I can't help but wonder if they have any regrets. I know they love their children, but if they had waited I'm almost positive they would be happier in their own lives. The ironic part is that I look at them looking at their children and want what they have...

In no way am I saying to give up on your dreams, because imagination and dreams are important to have, what I'm suggesting is to always have a back up plan. And definitely go after your dreams no matter the stakes, if it will truly make you happy !

The Phantom of Hired Actors

So rumor has it that the local community college is putting on the show of "Phantom of the Opera" in March of 2011 with hired actors. Here is how I feel about the hired cast, I feel that because it is a "community" based college, and the students are local and registered students, that they should be the only one's allowed to audition for roles. Some students have amazing voices and talents and would shine if given the opportunity in the spotlight. I don't agree with supplying talent from outside agencies, or outside schools. The talent should be local, Don't you agree ?

What I feel is happening by allowing this to continue is depriving you the student from an opportunity that can help shape your career. These "Actors" that are being hired this semester are said to have masters in music arts and are said to have traveled the world singing in several choirs and as featured soloists. What kind of competition is that against a student who has not yet received their degree, or just beginning to discover their career in music, is it fair? And to top my rant off, these "Actors" that are hired in to the show, have such a snob attitude about playing these roles as if it were their God given right. At the very least what I except these "expert actors" to provide is guidance to those students who had their hearts set on playing a lead role in this show, and were taken out of the spotlight and placed in the shadows or an expert.

Will I watch this show, should these rumors be true ? No!  Why? Because by watching this show and purchasing a $17 ticket I am supporting the productions decision to hire outside of students talents. I feel that there were a few students who deserved to receive lead roles in this production, because this show is presented as a college production, I strongly feel that these actors should be students of this college, and for more than just the quarter that the show is in rehearsal. 

Break a leg, Break both !